looking up rpms to support my USB devices and hub….

so i woke up this morning, and kind of milled around…procrastinating because i have an ASSLOAD of laundy to do (i dont know what happened…i think the laundry fairy visited me and was extra generous).. about 10 or so Scott calls and tell me to look out the window…and before i get into it, so that you know, for the past few days it was absolutely Faye Wray beautiful outside, the kind of days where you wish it would last forever, the kind of days that make memories that you tell your grandchildren on days that are pretty–but dont compare to the days you remember…anyway, scott calls me and tells me to look outside, and it is freaking flurry-snowing, nasty, wet, dark, and above all–cold.

but even ugly days cant bring me down to the sad mood i was in last week.

but why?
why was i sad?

i dunno, to tell ya the truth.

i can reflect on it like a historian on world war 2, never actually experiencing it, commenting from a safe retrospective point, because i dont know if i would want to revisit it…remind me the next time im down-and-out like that to tell you what i feel.

i suppose it was a mixture of being unemployed for so long, having only two good friends (whom i share everything, but do nothing with), cabin-fever because Lexington is not quite so busy as Houston….and also missing my family. as much as i bitch about Houston (dirty, smelly, polluted, high-cost-of-living, kick-em-when-they're-down….dont get me started)..i miss those few and far between beautiful days there, and it is on those days i reminisce.

so i drown out the sound of sad in my head with too much wine…..get a hangover, get a haircut, and then im back, feeling on top of the world!

<img src="http://www.asofyet.org/muppet/hairpic1.JPG"><p><a href="http://www.asofyet.org/muppet/hairpic1.JPG">click here and see my new hair</a><p>
got a new haircut today….it broke my week-long depression.
of course, when i got home from the haircutting place i thought scott was going to hemorrhage…he doesnt dig bangs so much. i think they make my forehead look not-so-friggin-huge.

nanny-nanny-poo-poo!

seeing as this is my first /real/ journal entry, i guess i should give the update on My_Modern_Life so far:

i am still looking for a damnable job; a daunting task, i assure you–to wit: i had an interview as a supervisor over customer support reps in a (dont laugh now..) Cemetary, went for the interview, was my normal Punktlich self, expecting at least a 10 minute wait, and then a 10 minute interview…got there (15 minutes early) and waited for the interviewer to get on the ball, 20 minutes later i was called into an office, (the guy who was interviewing me was about 40 or so), had my resume and person looked over and then was promptly escorted out of the building with the guy stammering that he was very busy that day, and that there were several other interviewees (that's funny..i didnt see any..), and that he simply didnt have the time to deal with me.

WTF?

could it be the nosering?
or perhaps….im just speculating now..could it be that a 20 year-old with a resume such as mine, who is not unattractive (im not bragging, or proud), and who is also professionally-minded when it is necessary (read: strong willed) could have INTIMIDATED a 40 year old man? yeh, i could have made their office a LOT more streamlined (they didnt have a SINGLE damn computer in the office), and i also could have made him look bad, especially since (in the brief time i spoke with him) i got the impression that he didnt think too highly of "career women" in general. perhaps he saw, in that 10 minute window of converse, that i could have been his vocational demise….i dont take too lightly my job positions, and i sure as hell dont have time for sexist assholes.

or maybe i give myself too much credit…..you decide.

scott and i are still trying for a baby; a pleasurable task.
i wont go into details on that.

also, since i know i'll have readers, ill try to update this as much as possible, seeing as that this will be the family-update site for all the crew in Texas.

but no more talk of jobs and babies! i have to go!

first DJ post from the LogJam client..this having gone through i will be most happy.

just got DeadJournal up (for me), now i have to get the Linux Client i choose configured……